All the Pies

The first pecan pie I ever made was a masterpiece, golden brown with a slightly jiggly center, the perfect ecru crust, the oohs and aahs from my family who had only seen such a thing in the glossy pages of “Southern Living.”  

And now, here in the intimacy of our own home, a Thanksgiving to remember, because of my pie.  Smug in what was clearly an undiscovered talent, a gift, really, I committed to making pecan pie again for the next Thanksgiving.  I followed the same recipe, used the same bowls, the same pie crust, pie pan, the same oven.  

Total fail. 

Times two, for I had doubled the recipe because everyone would want seconds, and some no doubt, thirds.  It was a widening gyre moment; the center did not hold.  I baked them for what seemed like hours, coaxing the things to set up while the pecans turned golden, then mahogany, then some brown not found in nature.  The crust begged for mercy and still the filling was a molten runny mess.

I did my best to rescue it, served it up in sweet little compotes, whipped cream hiding most of the sins.  Every pie from then on out was an equal, or even more, magnificent failure. 

Until the day my friend, Marianne, shared her grandmother’s recipe.  No fail, she said.  Use an electric oven, an gas oven, or a wood burning stove.  It doesn’t matter.  You will never cry over the wasted life of a pecan again. 

It starts with the recipe on the back of the dark Karo syrup bottle.  There is a secret ingredient, but I can’t give it to you.  But even without the substitution, it is the perfect pecan pie. 

I suspect the secret ingredient was less about creativity in the kitchen and more an issue of having run out of something, but regardless, it is a simple recipe which will never disappoint.

You can find fancier pecan pie recipes, the highfalutin’ ones that use brown butter, honey, maple syrup and maple sugar–who ever heard of maple sugar?  I am assured by the YouTube pie-maker it is a thing, but expensive and hard to find, so, really, just use regular brown sugar, she said, and I think she was just showing off.

No, I say, once a year, all that Karo syrup won’t hurt you.  And I honor Marianne, and her mother, Haroldine, and those grandmothers and aunts I never met.  As if I have invited East Tennessee to my Kentucky table. 

My mother’s pumpkin pie was legend and she, too, used the recipe on the back of the can. 

That can being, Libby’s pumpkin. In all the taste tests Libby’s pumpkin comes out on top and for a good reason.  It is made from a variety of the Dickinson pumpkin. Libby’s own the strain of Dickinson pumpkin and no one but they can get their hands on the seeds. 

Sometimes it is called the Dickinson squash and that is how all the rumors get started.  But, no, my dear ones, it is a pumpkin and that is all there is to it.  I suppose we could spend an evening debating the exact moment a squash becomes a pumpkin or a pumpkin becomes a squash, but what a dull evening that would be. 

Just get a can of Libby’s, a can of evaporated milk, spices, and go to town.  

Martha Stewart provides the pie crust, which I slowly master, and the bottles of corn syrup and cans of pumpkin do the rest. I may fiddle with the cranberry relish but the pies must never change.  Not on Thanksgiving.  Rainy Sunday afternoons are meant for experimenting in the kitchen.  Then, just about anything goes. 

But those pies are my mother, my friend and her people, whom I think I surely know, because Marianne is a storyteller and her family stories are as familiar as some of my own. My nieces and nephews will eat the pies and praise my efforts. They won’t know the many hands sifting, stirring, measuring spices, making do in a pinch, hands  that bring them traditions the will mistake as ours, alone.

Small Preparations

My earliest, fondest memories are these, sitting at my Granny Opal’s round kitchen table, she with a steno pad in her hands, as we solemnly brainstormed the menu for Thanksgiving dinner. 

I might have been four.  And while it may be that I can’t remember being four and at her tables, it is a memory firmly set regardless because it happened every year in my childhood, just this way. 

The menu rarely changed but it was the ritual of taking notes, of planning, of preparing for the family that we loved. I’ve taken it as my job ever since, even though my family isn’t the compact little unit it was when I was a child. Then, it consisted of two grandmothers, my parents, and whatever siblings I had at the time.  Even when it was just my older brother and me, it felt like a party.

Now, I sit with my notepad and try to plan for Thanksgiving and it is hard.  It isn’t even true planning, more like wishful thinking with paper, because we are on the generation four times removed from that 1950s kitchen on Triplett Street.  It is a true party now, when we are all together, although this happens so seldom, it is sad to think of it.  

There are challenges this year. My house is still upside-down, and clearly not ready for company, and my sister has a bum shoulder so she is benched for the duration.  The babies are likely to be no-shows because their dad has to work and their sleep schedules have finally taken hold and their mother isn’t ready to mess that up for a piece of turkey and a slice of pie.

Katie is exhausted, besides, and I suspect the idea of just chilling at home, Thanksgiving just another day, may be more a draw than a fifteen minute meal.  And you know it’s true, all that work, all that planning, and some slob polishes off two plates of food before the hostess has sat down for her first sip of tea. 

Other nieces and nephews are with their families, either the McDonoughs or their in-laws, and that is just fine, too.  We will get together soon enough, for birthdays and Christmas, but it leaves me with a notepad full of doodles instead of grocery lists.  Which is not to say I have been idle.

I cleaned out my freezer and found a turkey, one bought a while ago, and an off-brand at that, but I decided to do a test turkey, using Gordon Ramsay’s promise of the perfect holiday bird. 

As bombastic as he is, he is still a great chef, and he has a sweet Christmas video of preparing at home for the holidays.  I dug in last weekend and tried his bird.  

What a mess.  Let’s start with the bird, frozen too long to be very good, but still.  His process was involved and included draping the bird with bacon and cramming it full of butter and garlic, onion and lemon.  All I can say is, what a waste of good bacon.  It wasn’t bad, just not Thanksgiving.  In his video he makes an interesting cranberry chutney which I am happy to give a go, but I am back to brining my bird in a Gott cooler, and I will not be persuaded otherwise. 

Every year I sprawl, exhausted on my couch, avoiding the mound of dishes in my kitchen, wondering where my leftovers are–oh, yes, still at my sister’s, never to be seen by me again. This year it might not be such a bad thing, a quiet, small Thanksgiving. 

I am not writing Katie and the babies off just yet.  I can imagine she shows up mid-afternoon, knowing something is going on without her.  That would be fine.  No fuss, no expectation, babies in their everyday duds, pie and dressing and mashed potatoes all in a jumble for her partaking.  And if not, well, then, an excuse to see the babies, anyway, as we fight over who takes them food. 

I have had quiet Thanksgivings before.  I always pout about it.  But then, something magical happens.  The day arrives in serenity and quiet.  The afternoon unfolds with naps and pie, and naps again.  We can hear ourselves think.  We can hear each other talk. And the dishes practically wash themselves. This, too, a reason to give thanks.